Day 10 and I'm Miserable.

It's been ten days without Cigarettes or Alcohol and I got to admit that I'm pretty miserable. I had been smoking cigarettes for the better part of 15 years with the longest stretch without a cigarette was about 3 weeks when I was laid up in the hospital back in 2008. The thing I still can't get over is the smell. As a smoker, you kind of lose your sense of smell. And after being without cigarettes for a few days it starts to return. Things like the smell of fresh cut grass.... or the smell of a woman's shampoo... Things that I didn't even realize were a thing are starting to come into focus. Not saying i'm gonna go run around inside a Yankee Candle shop at the crack of dawn.... but its things like that that I've gone without noticing for so long. I'm also coming to realize just how bad I've smelt over the years. Being a pack a day smoker I didn't realize that all of my clothes, my car, my hands.... all smelt like bad decisions and wasted money. I've since done my laundry so the clothing doesn't smell to bad. a few more washes and the smell should be gone for good. The car is another story... that's probably gonna take months or longer... I should have the car professionally detailed, but I don't have the time right now to do that. Something I'll probably leave until the spring. I am curious to see how my budget looks three months from now. On a good month over the summer I was spending between $400 and $450 between cigarettes and patches so the cost savings should be shocking to say the least. Nothing like Rhode Island floating the state on the back of addiction. The only reason Alcohol is of any real importance in this post is I'm trying to find additional social outlets outside of "hitting the bar" where I can meet new people and socialize. So far.... other than small talk with random people at the stores I shop at... I've come up empty. I have however... been more inclined to exercise. I've gone for two bike rides since the start of September and I've been lifting weights 2-3 days in the ten days that are in the month.

Write more when I get closer to day 20.